Everytime we say goodbye..

Its strange how the mind works. If you gain something and there's no loss, then you are happy. But if there is some gain, but there is a loss, then you are not really happy. I'm being a bit vague here, but I am in such a confused state of mind. Today I'm leaving to India with mom and Snuggles, but Sri is not coming with us. He'll be joining us only a month later. Which is what makes it a mixture of happiness and sadness.

I'm going back to Bangalore! After almost 2 years! But where is the unlimited joy I expected? Just because Sri is not joining us, why is this turning into a not-so-happy moment? I'm all excited to be going back, but there is something lacking. Well, I have mentioned what it is in not-so-obvious words. I wish Sri could have been with me, I wish he wouldn't miss almost 1.5 months of Snigdha's life. I wish I could have been completely happy, instead of this half-happy-half-sad business..

Adding to this is the fact that I'm apprehensive about travelling with a baby. Haven't done that before :-D, so obviously I'm worried. I also have quite an amount of travelling to do once I'm in India. I can only hope that Snuggles does well in all situations. Wish me luck!

Only one song suits the occasion and its "Every Time We Say Goodbye" by Ray Charles and Betty Carter..

Ray Charles - Ever...

Everytime we say goodbye, I die a little.
Everytime we say goodbye, I wonder why a little..

Why the Gods above me, who must be in the know,
Think so little of me, they allow you to go..

When you're near, there's such an air of spring about it.
I can hear a lark somewhere, begin to sing about it..

There's no love song finer, but how strange the change from major to
minor,
Everytime we say goodbye...

If only Sri could be with me :((((....